I've been searching a long time
for someone exactly like you.
I've been travelling all around the world
waiting for you to come through
someone like you makes it all worth while
someone like you keeps me satisfied.
Someone exactly like you.

I've been travellin' a hard road
Lookin' for someone exactly like you
I've been carryin' my heavy load
Waiting for the light to come
Shining through.
Someone like you makes it
All worth while
Someone like you keeps
Me satisfied. Someone exactly
Like you.

I've been doin' some soul searching
To find out where you're at
I've been up and down the highway
In all kinds of foreign lands
Someone like you...

I've been all around the world
Marching to the beat of a different
Drum.
But just lately I have
Realized
The best is yet to come.


It's a beautiful night, not too cold, not too hot, just a chilly night. The stars are hanging in the sky, and this Van Morisson plays softly in the background. Out there, there are hundred of people staring at us, but on the dance floor, there's only you and I. It feels like we are the only people on earth. I'm wearing this beautiful white dress, and you are holding me close.

Words cannot explain how I feel in this very moment. This is the moment I've been dreaming of all my life.

After everything I've been through, it was you all along. You were my savior, I always knew you existed. All my youth I spent dreaming of you, yearning for your arrival in my life, and now I finally found you. My one and only, my soulmate.

"I'm the luckiest man", you whisper in my ear. I smile and wrap my arms around you tighter.

"I don't want to wake up from this dream."

Oh man... Days seem so short when you're doing one thing all day.

Weekend just flew by. Like all of my weekends. Oh well, my whole week is going to be weekend-like. Is that a good thing? Not when your weekends all about papers and tests and verdicts, it's not!

Weird kind of vacation!

It is some kind of vacation I guess, I don't need to go running around, waking up in the morning and straightening my hair. Nah. I can look like a bum, and honestly, I do!

Uggs, hoodies and a bun has become my uniform. Well bad news is, I have work tomorrow morning! That's just sad. Well it's just one day and then no work until Thursday. My test's on Thursday.

I'm doing well with the material so far, I've never had college tests, but I think I'm handling it pretty well. I want to excel, no less than that. It's important for my career, this is no high-school anymore, when you just wish to pass.

I want to do really well, that's why I've been working my ass off. I will work my ass off until I really feel like I can't anymore. But I'll still go while I can!

So much has been going on... in my head.

I feel so confused.

I love driving by myself with loud music on, it makes me feel so alive.

Today I was on the highway, music on, smiling to myself.

Being alone isn't fun, but I feel that on the aspect of my career, I'm doing so well. I finally know what I want in that field. Now all that is left is the other aspect.

I don't want to dedicate too much thought/energy as I have a crazy month ahead of exams. Let's just say I'm glad things are like that now, it's all good.

Weekend on the threshold again. I will spare you the days-go-by-so-fast speech. I'm speechless!

It's all good.
It's all good.
It's all good.

Someone asked me today, how come I don't have a boyfriend.

I've been asked that a lot. Why is it so odd to people?

I've been offered a tempting suggestion at work today.

People count on me. That feels good.

Well, off to bed. I dreamed of you last night. I don't remember the dream anymore.

I hope I'll dream of you tonight too.

I'm really spiritual lately. In a non-religious way.

I'm really connected with my emotions. I'm thinking how I always tell people they don't know me so well. But do I know myself? Sometimes I wonder.

I've spent every second in my life with myself, I see it all through my eyes, but I wonder how people see me from their point of view. Not that I care, I just can't help wondering..

Who am I? How can I be defined?

I'm thinking of how I feel when I spend too much time with a certain person, every little thing they do can annoy me. But what about myself? I'm ALWAYS with myself. There must be things that I find irritating about me.

Honestly, it doesn't matter, because overall, I think I'm pretty good.

So who am I?

I'm a girl.
With blue eyes and brunette hair.
I like Twizzlers, and vanilla ice cream.
I can't go through one day without coffee.
I'm pretty tall, not too tall but slightly above average.
I don't like mainstream too much, but when I do, people find it odd.
I love music. Everywhere, anytime. Can't live without it.
I like make up.
I'm probably going to be a lawyer.
I love drawing, but I haven't done that in a while.
I love reading.
I love Zooey Deschanel.
I have a type A personality.
I love stress, I work best under pressure.
I love writing.
My favorite song is "Yellow", by Coldplay.
My favorite band is Coldplay, haha.
My favorite movie is Reality Bites.
I miss the 90's. I miss my childhood.
I'm Jewish, and proud.
I have a fetish for foreign guys.
People think I'm French.
I speak really, really fast.
I taught myself how to play the guitar.
I have a twin brother.
I like spicy food.
I'm influenced easily by my surroundings.
I fall easily.
I'm afraid of commitment.
I like being alone and hate it at the same time.
I used to want to be an architect.
I keep looking for wedding songs to play at my wedding, but I guess I better get a spouse first, haha.
I was in love only once in my life, and that was online.
I miss being 15 and reckless.

That's pretty much it.

Oh, and did I mention I like Twizzies? :)
And the pouring rain!

Another day.... I just chugged in a whole carton of Italian Vanilla. I promised I won't, but oh well, I FAIL.

I'm figuring it out, little by little.

Days keep going so fast, oh my. I'm going to figure it all out soon. Just give me some time. I wanna be involved, I'm not very pleased with how I do so far. I'm going to take a drastic step soon. I feel it.

So far, I've got loads of stuff to do, and I'm loving it.

I wanna excel.

How do you describe your day in one word?


French.

On me dit que nos vies ne valent pas grand chose,
Elles passent en un instant comme fanent les roses.
On me dit que le temps qui glisse est un salaud que de nos chagrins il s'en fait des
manteaux pourtant quelqu'un m'a dit...

Que tu m'aimais encore,
C'est quelqu'un qui m'a dit que tu m'aimais encore.
Serais ce possible alors ?

I keep being mistaken for French. Not sure why, people claim I have a French accent - no matter in what language I speak.

I found it irritating at first, but then I realized - it's awesome. French girls are so beautiful, elegant and natural.

Also, I've always loved this language, I think it's a beautiful language, I always wanted to learn how to speak French. Should put that in my new year's resolutions!

Anyway... Another day. I can feel the pressure. It's been such a stressful and alone time, but I'm glad it has been. I'm handling it very well, I feel like I'm getting to know myself, I feel like I'm being myself. I feel like I'm in control. Just keeping it like that, and I will do amazing.

Well, getting late... I should really stop eating so many damn Twizzlers, haha.

Good night pals.

I believe in being strong, when everything seems to be going wrong.
I believe in being strong, when everything seems to be going wrong.
I believe in being strong, when everything seems to be going wrong.

I keep reminding myself this.

It's tough, to not break down when everything is just so damn hard.

But I won't break down.

Because I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong.

Sunday, a brand new week. It's been a long day, I'm super tired, but strangely content with myself. I feel that in spite everything, I finally have things in control. All this time, I was so depressed and so out of control, so weak. Maybe things aren't always the brightest, but at least I've got things in hand, I'm not gonna lose my head again.

I thought it was a good thing, to lose yourself, to let go. Everyone always say that it's a good thing, otherwise you can't really be happy. Well, guess what? That didn't work well for me, it just hurt me. So I'm not going to lose myself again.

Yesterday I had trouble falling asleep, and suddenly it came to me. I'm glad we didn't work out. If I had you in my life right now, it would only bring me more trouble.

So, it's all good. Mid-terms, but I've got it all under control, and hopefully I'm gonna have some fun along the way.

Tomorrow is another day, yay.

Another week came to an end.

Mid-terms, oh my.

Well, It's gonna be a stressful week, but this time I'm going to have it all planned out before hand.

Just thinking of the amount of coffee I'm going to drink this week, oh boy.

Well, have a great week y'all!

With Twizzlers in my tummy, a radiator, green tea and loads of paperwork, I say: Hello weekend!

Brrrr... I'm starting to really hate those winter nights. They're bringing me down a little bit. But I won't. It seems like yesterday a new week started, and here it came to an end. It makes me sad that time flies so fast...

"You can't start the next chapter of your life if you keep re-reading the last one."

It's true. It's also true that maybe these days haven't been the shiniest, but I know some shiny days are along the way. It's midterms time, there's nothing fun about it. But like Audrey said - "I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong."

I feel changed, somehow. 2012 feels different. I never really noticed the difference between the years, but what started as a good romance, ended in a bittersweet inside makeover.

I'm gathering the pieces little by little, it's hard work, and it makes me tired, but when I reach the top, it will be priceless.

I don't know what awaits for me, but I have this feeling, it's worth all the hard work.

Vague, maybe. All this time, I felt so bad that I didn't do it right, that I didn't keep you close, that I let you go. But not anymore, I feel like it made me stronger. I thought back and I regretted meeting you, but now I'm glad I did. I really am. What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger. Another phrase I will adopt.

WHAT DOESN'T KILL YOU, MAKES YOU STRONGER.